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1. YOU wernt my first love, my gf before you was and i relise that now.
2. I AM OVER YOU! it took a month, but that month was two months ago.
3. Im not using her so stop saying i am, im not trying to make you jealous, and she doesnt like me.
4. You said i wouldnt find a girl as good as you, i just proved you wrong today.
5. I have my dignity, confidence and happiness back.
6. I just got accepted to UNHO, so go ahead tell me im not a better person, cause im just gonna laugh.
7. Im doing better at everything, and its cause im not cought up in what you want.
8. You have nothing on me, so go ahead get pissed cause guess what, i dont care. Theres only one girl that has control over my moods and thats Shelby.
9. Last time i checked, it was the girl that was the sloppy second.
Haha, i feel much better now
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i came on here to put how i feel, but i cant. im confused, never dealt with this before. but shit happens. i cant wait till school starts so i can see my friends and hopefully get a new girlfriend, have a couple in mind but im skeptical if i can fall in love with them.
wow ive changed so much. i used to make fun of guys that talked like this. i dont know whats going on with me. i feel like im still fighting myself but i dont know why or what for.
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do i come on here? ive been so happy latly, but then i come on here and i dont feel right. i fucking hate this. i dont have time to deal with this bullshit. Aaron told me to keep my options availible, and what do i do. everytime a girl gave me her number while we were dating i fucking deleted it or threw it away. Which i thought was right at the time but it wasnt. idk ive been pretty foggy latly. Aaron told me i would neeed 1 day for every month we were together to get over you. bullshit. i still hurt when im by myself. and i have noone to talk to. and thats why i hangout with alicia. she doesnt care iff i talk about you. and right now thats all i can talk about. i dedicated the last seven months to you. its hard not to talk about you. Aaron and Fatkid like that were not dating though. they said i lost sight on everything. and there right. before you i wanted to be a marine. i wanted to do a lot of things. but i gave all of that up to spend time with you. and now i dont know what im doing. i feel lost. and i need help. something i dont like admitting but i do. i always say ill find a way, but im not sure i will this time. luck ends somewhere i guess. a couple months ago i lied to you, and ive been living with the guilt every since. if you want to know tell me, if not then dont. i just want to get rid of it.
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i miss the smile you put on my face when i was with you. i miss the excitment of being inside you and i love the fact that your so loud when i was inside. i like that your german, yea you had your problems and you made me mad every once and a while but i was always able to fix it. but when it finally came down to it it wasnt meant for you to be mine. Thats why i sold you. You were my favorite car. i miss being able to say i own a BMW.
bet noone knew i was talking about a car. HaHa
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does it hurt when i think about you. i thought i was over you, and i know it cant work so why do i feel like this. i dont get it, i go days where im happy and then i have one day where im so sad i cant take it anymore. why is this happening to me. i had you, but now its too late. i want things to be like they used to be. i want to be happy again. my brain tells me i want you but my heart is unsure. theres a war going on inside me amd i dont know how to stop it. i tell myself ill feel better if i talk to you but when i do i only feel worse. and that stupid bitch adding more confusion into my head. NO I WONT FUCK YOU JUST STAY THE FUCK AWAY FROM ME. ALICIA, I HATE YOU FOR WHAT YOU’VE DONE AND I’LL NEVER FORGIVE YOU. I DIDN’T FEEL BETTER WHEN I WAS AROUND YOU, AND YOU ACTUALLY BROUGHT OUT THE OLD ME FOR A LITTLE WHILE, AND I HATE THE OLD ME. THE OLD ME IS A COWARD, AND A LIAR. I HATED BEING LIKE THAT. THE OLD ME RAN FROM HIS PROBLEMS AND EMOTIONS. But now im different. ill face whatever someone throws at me, and i have you to thank for that heidi. you changed me. because of you i deal with my emotions. i no longer run from them. but more importantly because of you i found myself. these three weeks have been so hard but ive been so happy with myself. i just wish you got to see this new me before it all ended, but im afraid if it didnt end i would still be angry with myself. so endind it did change me for the better but i wish it could start again but i know it cant, i know you dont want it to, which hurts me more than you know.
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i wasnt trying to make you guilty or jealous, i was trying to fill the hole you left me with. and i thought being with alicia would fill it. and i know now i was wrong. but what you did, i cant even describe it. you really hurt me. and how could you move on so early. did you even love me, cause it doesnt seem like you did. you told me you loved me more than sam. but it took months for you to get over sam and just a week and a half to get over me. But i want to know why you would purposely try to hurt me, actually i dont care, i hope your dates go well, and i hope they make you happy like i once did, and the reason i dont care is cause i know youll always remember me for reasons im not putting on the internet. and ill always remember you not for the same reasons but because you were the first girl ive loved, and you know how hard it is to lose the one you love so why would you through the whole joey thing at me. thats just so low. i hope you dont take me as an asshole for this, causer thats not what im trying to be, i dont want you to hate me and i hope you dont, because i want to be your friend. when we were still dating you told me i wasnt just a boyfriend, i was your bestfriend aswell. thats so true, and i dont want to lose a bestfriend. please if you care at all about our friendship you need to call me, i cant keep calling you, phones work both ways. please
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im glad that your feeling better. i know it hurts, trust me it hurts me too, but please dont cry anymore. before i go theres something i have to admit, i went to your house today on a misson. my misson wasnt to get back together with you, no thats not what i wanted, well atleast not what i need, my misson was to show you the truth, to show you no matter what we did that it wasnt going to work. This isnt what i wanted to do but i know its what had to be done and thats why i did it. I dont want you to think i was acting happy when i was kissing you cause i wasnt, because thats what i really want. Those kisses were real, well atleast mine were. But i knew that i couldnt let this whole thing eat you up, that is the only reason why i came over today. There are no selfish gains in any of what i did, i did it strictly for you because of our past and future friendship. im going to miss you, and im going to miss your family. And i know we used to love eachother, but that love never goes away, its only reborn into something new. Im glad i tought you alot during our relationship and i hope ive had a good influence on you. And if i have dont let any of that go, hold on to it and make it stronger. Just promise me you wont cry anymore, ill call you in a week, Love always and forever, Airbear
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im so nervous. im happy cause i get to see the greatest girl in the world for the first time in a week but im scared of what the outcome is gonna be. when you left me it felt like you took a part of me with you, it feels like something in my stomach is missing. But i also feel like its my fault, i feel like i drove you away, i didnt show my emotions toward you, instead i got so caught up in my own confusion that i just shut down. i once told you that every time something good happens for me it always comes back and bites me, and thats what happened with you. But this time im not giving up, you are the perfect girl for me and you’ve changed me for the better. im so much more motivated than i was even just a week ago. i love you, i dont know if you still love me but i dont care, i just want to be with you. When im with you im so happy. Even moose misses you, its like he’s in a coma. i hoped that made you laugh (: i miss you and no matter what happens i’ll always be here kitten.
waiting for tomarrow is killing me i dont know if im gonna get any sleep.
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i miss you. i wish you didnt do this. its killing me. all i want to do is talk to you. i love you so much and Ill do anything to make you love me again. i was so happy with you
i want things to be how they were a couple months ago. i want to hold you in my arms again.
i still feel like this is my fault. i got to comfortable with you and i lost sight of our relationship and im such an idiot for doing that. i forgot to show my feelings for you like i used to. please just give it a chance, not for me, but for the relationship we used to have.
i havnt been able to sleep or eat cause i have nightmares about you and my stomach hurts so much. i love you so much. this cant be what you want. baby please call me.
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