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do i come on here? ive been so happy latly, but then i come on here and i dont feel right. i fucking hate this. i dont have time to deal with this bullshit. Aaron told me to keep my options availible, and what do i do. everytime a girl gave me her number while we were dating i fucking deleted it or threw it away. Which i thought was right at the time but it wasnt. idk ive been pretty foggy latly. Aaron told me i would neeed 1 day for every month we were together to get over you. bullshit. i still hurt when im by myself. and i have noone to talk to. and thats why i hangout with alicia. she doesnt care iff i talk about you. and right now thats all i can talk about. i dedicated the last seven months to you. its hard not to talk about you. Aaron and Fatkid like that were not dating though. they said i lost sight on everything. and there right. before you i wanted to be a marine. i wanted to do a lot of things. but i gave all of that up to spend time with you. and now i dont know what im doing. i feel lost. and i need help. something i dont like admitting but i do. i always say ill find a way, but im not sure i will this time. luck ends somewhere i guess. a couple months ago i lied to you, and ive been living with the guilt every since. if you want to know tell me, if not then dont. i just want to get rid of it.
